Anandabazar Patrika

15 cSArc 1416 PS{yS} 2 vMzG} 2009

for ENGLISH

I wish I could be
more responsible
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I did say I would call last night, you are absolutely right. I wish I could be more responsible sometimes.

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P|{v rA{ y~Mr wSM}S: I understand you to say that your trust in me has been broken.
cdva PySM~S vS: You are confused with all your emotional upheaval right now.
y~Mr wSM}S: I guess you are feeling pretty mad at me right now.
<4 c}Mr wSM}S, rMy dy SyuSMv, {t zSMy, P|{v: Are there any other thoughts that you need to share with me?

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{MvS{SA~v M~ _cZ csS tzSMy y~S |SZ rA{ y~Mr wSM}S: You have made me feel very upset. YyS} rA{ _ zSMya y~Mr wSM}S: I feel pretty upset that such a thing has come between us. <s{mS} PhMZ A&rHZmS y~S XMvc zS~

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